Holy shit it’s been a crazy week. I’m not even gonna be PG and pretend that it hasn’t. The seizures started to come back due to stress and lack of sleep. I started to feel myself slipping back into my old mindset of feeling hopeless and helpless and like there was no way of pulling myself out of this hole of depression and anxiety.
Thank god I have amazing supports in my life. I don’t know what I would do without them! I was talking to a friend on the phone this past Friday, and I was telling her how I was feeling upset about the seizures and some other stuff that had happened this past week. She validated my experiences by saying that it sucked that they happened to me, but then she said something else that completely blew my mind. “You know what Sita? Feelings aren’t facts. Even if you may be feeling kinda down or stressed right now, remember that those feelings are not who you are.” Whoa. I never thought about it like that before. Who I am as a person could be separate from what I was feeling? And even if there are some things that I am stressed about, I don’t have to let it ruin my weekend! Amazing!
Maybe you have heard this before or it seems obvious to you, but I had never even considered this before. I feel my feelings very intensely and I see it as being very tightly bound with who I am as a person. Some people would describe me as a sponge, because I observe everything that’s going on around me and pick up on the subtleties of other people’s emotions and their energy. This can be very useful, because I can pick up on when someone is upset and I know how to adjust myself accordingly. On the other hand it can also be very annoying because I absorb the energy that’s around me and it’s hard to not feel affected by it.
Anyways, what my friend said to me stuck like glue and I haven’t stopped thinking about it since. So, I did what any crafty person would do: I got some bright coloured paper, a pair of scissors, and a black sharpie and I created a little art project for my closet door to remind myself that I am doing okay and that I can choose how I feel about what’s happening in my life.
It’s one thing to have people tell me that I am going to be okay and everything is going to work out, but since I created these messages myself, I actually believe it.
Thanks so much for reading! I hope I inspired you to think of some positive mantras for your own life! Love you all xox