I know I haven’t posted in over a month. I have been going through a ton of changes, and I haven’t really been in the mental space to share them with everyone and anyone. I figured I might as well get back on track though. I am starting to feel more like my old self. I am doing some ‘bio feedback therapy’. This kind of therapy doesn’t involve talking at all. It’s all about strengthening different brain waves by doing neuro puzzles on a computers at a doctor’s office. Sound crazy? It kinda is. I’ve had five sessions so far. They’re pretty cool. I am getting out as much as I can. Seeing friends has been quite therapeutic, and they’re all really supportive which has been great. I’m pretty excited for the holidays! My family isn’t super crazy wild about the holidays, we’re just more chill about the holidays which is nice.
Last night I watched “Love and Other Drugs” with my Mom. I had seen it before, either on my trip to Vancouver or my returning flight to Ottawa. Either way, all I remember is that the first time that I saw it was on a teensy Air Canada screen. It stars free loving Jamie Randall (Jake Gyllenhaal), who is trying to make it big in the drug rep world. Jamie has the reputation of floating from job to job without going far, but there’s something about this job that seems to click with him. Of course this movie isn’t all inspiration. Jamie is a bit of a “woman lover” (my blog friendly way of saying that he loves to get it on with women). His tactics even mystifies his drug rep, Bruce (Oliver Platt Who is also in “The Big C” which is on Nettflix and you should check it out if you haven’t already!). Everything changes when Jamie meets Anne Hathaway’s character, Maggie Murdoch. If you haven’t seen the movie, I will try not to give away too much.
At age 26 Maggie has been diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease. (Which is extremely rare. Usually only adults in their fifties are diagnoses with Parkinson’s unless it runs in the family). Jamie finds himself falling for her and Maggie finds herself angry that he keeps sticking around because she is getting sicker and sicker. According to the premise of this film there is no cure for Parkinson’s, so I can understand why Maggie would distance herself from a romantic partner. But anyways, Jamie is confused as to why Maggie doesn’t want him around. Although I am not dying, not in the least, I found that I could relate to Maggie’s point of view. There have been times where I didn’t know why my boyfriend would want to be with me when I was constantly having seizures, and my life had been diminished to hanging out at home, cancelling plans, lying in bed, having mental breakdowns, and sudden hospital visits. Why would anyone want that? If you know me well you will know that I will argue that I never want to be reduced to my medical condition. I hate being referred to as an ‘epileptic’ because I feel like it makes me sound like a brand of person. I also just think that the word itself sounds harsh.
But you see what I did there? I just reduced myself to a medical condition on my own. I didn’t have anyone do it for me. My boyfriend sees me as a person way beyond the epilepsy. Jamie saw Maggie as a person beyond the Parkinson’s. So I guess in a way, seeing the movie was a good way to see the ‘other perspective’. My boyfriend doesn’t see the epilepsy as me. He wants to help that little aspect of me, but he sees ‘Me’ as something way more than just a chronic condition. He sees me as Sita, being awesome and amazing, funny, silly, pretty, smart, all of those things that you would want in a partner. Even though it was a romantic comedy, I would argue that the medical aspect and Anne Hathaway’s charachter brought it to a different level. Grab some friends, convince your girlfriend, boyfriend or spouse, get some wine and cozy up and watch it. It’s a pretty good movie. Oh, and be sure to tell me what you think.
One of the most recent photos I could find that wasn’t a selfie. Hope you’re doing well!! xoxo