How I’ve Learned That I’m Never Really Alone

depression

Hey friends. Okay I am going to be brutally honest. This week has been rough. I found myself in bed on Monday feeling so depressed that I needed to talk to someone. Of course, this depression washes over me at the most inconvenient of times. It was 12:30am where I was, and some of my best friends were in another province and in a deep slumber at 3:30 in the morning. There was no the fuck way I was going to call them that late.
So I thought. My parents were asleep (and I am sure they would have talked to me), yet  I didn’t want to wake them. I thought of who I could call in my area that wouldn’t mind talking to me so late.

One of my bestest friends currently has a very bad cold and an ear infection. I felt so bad about calling her, but I knew she would understand. We talked for maybe over half an hour, and she told me that I could call her at any time. No matter where she was, and if she got a missed call from me while she was working, she would message me right away.

Feeling less alone when you are trying to pull yourself out of mental health issues (ie depression) helps soooo much.If you are ever in that situation, try to think of a friend you can call, or your area’s crisis line. Thank you, dear friend. You are helping to pull me out of the quicksand that is depression. With Epilepsy, I am at a higher risk of developing mental health issues (just a fact, not playing the victim card) so I really appreciate all the support I get.

Please, please please keep my story in mind if you find  yourself in a tough position.

Love you all! Keep fighting the fight! xox

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2 thoughts on “How I’ve Learned That I’m Never Really Alone”

  1. My epilepsy and mental health are linked due to the position in the brain of where I had a haemorrhage, when I get seizures it triggers depression/anxiety. My seizures started getting worse last summer and I was in 9 month relationship. I used to feel really guilty calling him up late at night to tell him how low I’d started feeling. By early Autumn he dumped me. Now I know never to go out with someone who won’t take the odd phone call and mess up their routine for you- in the long run they won’t stick it out anyway so what’s the point!!

    1. I am so sorry to hear that happened to you. Discrimination with regards to mental health and disabilities is sadly high. 😦 I had a partner who was there through all the accidents, bad days etc so I know for sure there are guys out there like that! You just need to be sure they see YOU first and the epilepsy/mental health second. You are not your diagnosis. Thanks for sharing your story!

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