Hey friends!! Hope you’re doing well.
So, just to mix things up, I thought I would talk about my current yoga practice. I’ve had a hard time doing yoga and sticking with it. I have done it on and off for several years, but there was something about it that just didn’t jive with me. I would feel judged by teachers and that my body wasn’t doing “what it was supposed to.”
Recently though, a yoga/pilates/dance studio opened up close to where I live. I love the environment of going to a workout class, because it almost feels like a little family. Most importantly though, I felt that the yoga instructor was super supportive, and non judgmental of my abilities to do the poses. If I happened to tumble out of a pose she would say “Hey, that’s contemporary dance!”
I have always brought so much judgment towards myself when it came to yoga, because I felt I had to do all the poses perfectly. (That’s the good old perfectionism kicking in). At the beginning of each class though, we set an intention for what we want for ourselves during the class. Throughout my new found love for yoga, I set the intention of “Not being judgmental towards myself and I don’t need to be perfect.”
It is amazing how setting these intentions for my practice as well as the meditation (savasana) have helped my mental health, as well as my seizures. Since doing yoga, my seizure have been relatively under control, and I feel like the happier, springier person that I normally am. Additionally, setting the intention of “not setting any judgment towards myself” has really helped my every day thoughts and day-to-day life.
I am so happy that I was able to find a yoga instructor that worked well with me. It would be so sad to miss out on what everyone seems to be practicing these days.
Have you tried yoga?? I really recommend you do if you are able!
Lots of love xox
Hey friends! So I have been thinking about one thing a lot recently: courage. I have always been given the label as courageous, which I found to be interesting. When I was in middle school our school motto was “wisdom, courage, and integrity” and when I graduated (from grade 9 haha) I was given the title of courage.
What does it really mean to be courageous and live a courageous life? What makes one person more courageous than another? I try to live my life to the best of my ability, and sometimes I take a little courage out of my back pocket to help me through tough times. But what about that is special? Don’t we all have difficult times in our lives? Don’t we all need courage? I don’t feel like I am any different than anyone else…okay well sometimes I do when I have accidents. I just feel like I am going through the motions of life, working through what I want and how I can ultimately get there, despite some of my limitations.
I have learned to surround myself with people who love and support me, and are strong pillars to lean on when I need that extra support. That has helped me get through so much, you probably know yourself!
So what is my definition of courage? I would say that it is having the ability to ask for help when you need it, and to stand strong in your own truth. I think it also takes courage to own your own truth, whatever it may be. Maybe you are reading this and you don’t have epilepsy, but you have your own truth that can be hard to own. Sometimes it is hard to own my truth of having epilepsy, but it’s not a death sentence. It’s challenging, but I have 64 million other people in the world who own that truth too.
Perhaps Courage overlaps a bit with authenticity. It takes courage to say “Hey, this is me. This is my story.”
This has been a bit of a muddle of thoughts but what are your thoughts on courage and owning your own story? Is it hard? Easy? Expected? You tell me!
Love you lots xox
So the last post kinda sucked. Okay, wait. It REALLY sucked. But I think I am making strides and turning things around with regards to how I feel and what I want to do. I have some exciting news!!
I have decided to write a book. I think it would be great to take my favourite blog posts (that’s close to three years of blogging!!) and collaborate with someone to make a really awesome book.
Many people want to know what it’s like to live with Epilepsy at this age and stage, so it will be a great insight for many people.
I want to be a happy person despite the epilepsy. Now I`ve just gotta do some grunt work.
Love you lots! xox