100 Days of Gratitude-Day 6!

Hey friends! I hope you had an amazing day! I did- I got some work done and then went out! It was good times all around.

I am SO SO thankful for tea! It might seem silly as I suffered a massive burn from a seizure and tea incident (donhappiness-looks-good-on-you‘t worry, it’s all healed up). but I love tea. It has so many amazing qualities that can help your body and mind. Today my tummy was a little upset so I had Peppermint tea and BAM! I felt better! I would definitely have to say that my go-to is Earl Grey Tea, but I love Bengali Spice, Masala Chai, Jasmine Green tea and Creme de Caramel Green tea.

Do you love tea too??

Lots of love,
Sita Gaia and JoJo xoxo

100 Days of Gratitude-Day 5!!

Hey friends! I am feeling good today, as I have accomplished the work that I set out to do! As my mom would post *arm pump*!

sita-sahasrabudhe-headshotI have been thinking about Tedx a lot today, and I am really thankful that I was able to do a TedxTalk this year. If you haven’t seen it yet- check it out here! Being part of TedxStanleyPark was a real game changer. I went into it wanting to talk about people with Epilepsy and Disabilities, but some of my fellow speakers really changed my game with regards to what I am doing with my life. I would have never imagined this, but now I am working hard to become (or am I already one??) a solopreneur. (Which is like an entrepreneur, except it’s just one person.) This person (Hey Isabelle, you rock!) saw something in me and gave me an awesome butt kick in the right direction. When she saw that I was falling out of her community, and even stopped communicating with her, she told me that she thought I hid behind my Epilepsy. I was SO upset, but hey it’s because the truth hurts. It was like a hand pulling me out of the quicksand and saying “Hey! I believe in you! Now YOU have to believe in you, too!”

That aside, the actual experience of Tedx was amazing. I actually had a platform to talk about chronic illness, and besides graduating it was probably one of the best days I’ve had thus fat. So yeah, I am so grateful for being able to speak at Tedx, the people that I met, and how much of a game changer it was!

Lots of love,
Sita and JoJo xoxo

100 Days of Gratitude-Day 2

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Tonight I am pooped, but I just thought I would let you know that I am thankful for meaningful conversations and relationships. This was shared with me 4 years ago today, and still has just as much meaning.

There’s some people in this lifetime that make every day fuller, every blow softer, and every smile wider. Sita Gaia, I am so very, very lucky to have you as a best friend. On the days that I struggle, you grab the end of my rope and pull me up, even if you yourself are standing on the same platform as I am. As you head home to BC, (even though I know it’s for a good reason and that you’ll be back in a couple of months), I want you to know how much I will love and miss you while you’re gone. You’re my warm blanket in friend form, and I am so very, very proud of you for staying stron

Lots of love,
Sita Gaia & JoJo

100 Days of Gratitude- Day 1!

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Hey friends,

My friend is doing a 100 day of Gratitude Challenge, and she asked me if I would do it too!
So I said sure, and here we go. Day 1 of 100 Days of Gratitude. (PS this is hard to choose ONE thing because I have so much to be grateful for!)

Today I am grateful for the ability to relax and read and spend time on the computer when my stomach isn’t feeling well. It is really nice to spend some quiet time and do some thinking. ❤

Lots of love

Sita Gaia & JoJo xox

My Amazing Conversation about Shame

Hey friends,

picture-of-me-1I know I put Life at Full Volume on hiatus, but that’s because when I was looking back at my most recent blog posts, it was all about Epilepsy. I didn’t see Sita Gaia there anymore. This blog is called Life at Full Volume, but seriously, it was Life on Mute. It was Life on Sad. 😦 I just have a diagnosis, and it is not WHO I am.

Truth be told, I have been drowning in Epilepsy. Between Doctor’s appointments, feeling ill, and picking up medications, I was sinking deeper and deeper.

I’m not here to tell you that I am cured, and it’s something I am working on. I do, however, want to share with you something that I love to do. I LOVE having deep, vulnerable conversations. Let me share with you something that happened recently.

I have been reading Brene Brown’s book “I Thought it Was Just Me (But it Isn’t)”. She goes in depth with her research about shame. Shame is a very heavy emotion to carry around, and everyone experiences shame in a different way. Brene Brown talks about “Speaking Shame”- the closer we are to NOT speaking shame, we have a tendency to act out or shut down. The closer we are to speaking it we express how we feel and ask for what we need.

I have a good friend who also has Epilepsy, but her epilepsy is different than mine. I always felt shame when she told me about the newest project she was working on or some new endeavour she was involved in. Prior to reading about this, I would shut down and sometimes act out. I told her in an honest conversation that I felt shame when we talked about her work, because I felt like I wasn’t measuring up. (Ridiculous, right?!) When I told her that, she explained to me that she felt shame about some things too. (WOAH, right?!) . It wasn’t a heroic act- let me tell you this. I finally had the courage to address something that I was noticing in my life.We were really able to get our hands dirty and have this open conversation about shame. In the end? I felt SO much better about our friendship and I have already noticed a shift.

I LIVE for these types of conversations. I feel like I have the strength and courage to be able to talk about things that mean something to me. Thus, I will also attract people who feel the same way. This is partly why I did my degree in Social Work- because I am not scared to wade into uncharted territories and see what will happen.

Expect LESS posts about Epilepsy in the future and more about me. It’s gonna be a good time.

Lots of love,
Sita Gaia &JoJo xox