I have been frustrated lately because there was a big barometric drop in pressure last week, which triggered a whack load of seizures. Since I have had the VNS inserted, I have not had any massive seizures such as falling.
Last Thursday I had a pretty bad seizure in particular. I was on the phone with my partner and I started gripping the phone. She asked if I was still there, and then assumed we got cut off because she went underground. I heard her though, and due to rigidity, I fell off the chair I was sitting on. Ouch! Damn that hurt.
Seizures trigger a lot of mental health issues, such as anxiety and depression. Since I have it in my lucky cards to have Refractory Epilepsy, I am even more likely to have depression (which I do) and anxiety. Yay!
What makes me feel awesome though is my clothing. Every night before I fall asleep, I plan my outfit. I am not the most practical dresser, so I might think of wearing a skirt when it has been raining all week. My fashion gives me confidence because I can say “Hello World! I am not feeling well but I look great!”
I know it’s unrealistic to expect every single day to be Ah-MAZING. As my coach Georgee told me, life has it’s ebbs and flows and if it was always up, we wouldn’t appreciate it so much. Such wise words! I am trying to get my a$$ back into gear, even though it’s hard with the correlation of mental health issues that come with epilepsy.
What gets YOU through the tough times??
Sita & JoJo