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Living with a Vagus Nerve Stimulator: Is it Worth it?

Hey BB’s

Living wih VNS Canva     This is almost the one year anniversary of getting my Vagus Nerve Stimulator implanted. A Vagus Nerve Stimulator (VNS) is like a pace maker, except for the brain. A little device is implanted right below the collarbone, on the left  and a wire is attached via the vagus nerve. (Which is on the left side of the neck). It is set to send little pulses at a rate that is determined by your epileptologist/neurologist. It can help to stop  a seizure, or make it less aggressive by swiping a magnet that you wear like a watch on your right wrist. I’m still waiting for someone to ask me the time as I look super rich by having an iWatch. Regardless, the pulses feel very powerful!

Is it worth it? For me, it was 100% worth it. I was at a point where my seizures were so frequent that my epilepeptologist bumped me up to Urgent, in terms of receiving it. There are only TWO doctors in the province that I live in that do it, so there was a bit of a wait, but it was worth it. My seizures have decreased a lot, and I can actually feel an aura now! I am travelling right now- and when there was a huge drop in pressure I was able to wave my magnet over the VNS device to help prevent from seizures.

The one thing that bothers me about the Vagus Nerve Stimulator is that sometimes the pulses run through my voice box, making it sound a little strangled. (This is clear proof from my Epilepsy Nurse who said she could hear a difference in my voice. I know tonnes of people think their voices sound different with no change, but there has been, my friends). It may not affect you, as you may not need the pulses turned up so high, It totally depends on case by case, and no one is a cookie cutter.

If a VNS is your best option, I would go with it! You never know how much it could change your life for the better. I know it has for me! My Fiancee has been able to stop seizures while I am having them, and I can prevent them if I feel an aura.

Lots of love,
Sita Gaia xx

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Advocating for BC Epilepsy Society

Hey bb’s!

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How are you doing this Wednesday afternoon? I saw my epilepsy specialist, as it was an appointment to see how my Vagus Nerve Stimulator was working. It was increased a bit, and I told him that I have been feeling insanely tired lately. Moreso than usual, I’ve been sleeping for a solid 12 hours on some days. I was impressed that he didn’t just brush it off as recovering from my seizures last Friday. Instead he said, “Keep an eye on that”.

WOW! I wish everyone had a health care team like that and support that they could go to. That’s why this month I am working to raise One thousand dollars for the BC Epilepsy Society. That way we can support more people with epilepsy, as we are all one. If you are interested in supporting my Go Fund Me, go to Go Fund Me and every dollar counts! I was inspired to do this by my friend who raised 1000 dollars for the BC Arthritis Society.  I thought hey, if she can do it, so can we!

Any questions, their website is BC Epilepsy Society , and if you have any questions for me, feel free to leave them below or shoot me an email at sita.gaia@gmail.com

Thank you for all the support! We got this!

Love.
Sita Gaia

What I Want my Amazing Health Team to Know

SpoonsFirst off, I have an amazing health team to help treat my Refractory Epilepsy.     I have a top notch epileptologist, Vagus Nerve Specialist who comes in from out of town once a month, an epilepsy nurse who is fantastic, a neuropsychiatrist who I see every 6 months, and a psychologist who I see once a month. Plus I would like to add my family and friends. Whew! What an amazing  team!

Although my epileptic seizures are under pretty good control now (HALLELUJAH!) there are things I need my team to know.  Epilepsy is not just seizures.  Epilepsy now for me means counting my spoons ever so carefully. If you don’t know what the spoon theory is, check it out here: the spoon theory.

I always need to make sure that I don’t over-book my agenda. If I have appointments that week, I really can’t over socialize. I also need to  make sure I have time to help my fiancee around the house and grocery shop on the weekends.

So, health team, I need you to know that I struggle with anxiety and depression, despite the fact that my seizures are much better controlled. I need to opt out of things last minute if I am feeling exhausted. I am doing my absolute best, but sometimes that means combating the depression or anxiety that looms over my head on a regular basis.  Just because the seizures are gone, there are still things that I need to work with. Don’t pity me, I just need you to know.  I am a chronic illness warrior, so I keep fighting the good fight.

Thank you for doing all of the amazing work that you do! I couldn’t get through it without all of you!!

Love,
Sita Gaia

Epilepsy: Stepping Up and Taking Responsibility

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Hey guys! I am still recovering from the VNS surgery I had last week, and through this awesome book my gf lent me I realized something: I can either be the victim or step up and take responsibility. The author describes it like this: you end up with a crying baby on your door step. Is it your fault? No, but it’s your responsibility to manage it.

Too often I have been whining about my epilepsy and complaining that I am a victim to it. Did it make me depressed? Yup. Did I get anywhere? Nope. I have been stepping up more and taking better care of myself ( e.g., always carrying my emergency seizure meds, and I take full responsibility for when I experienced toxicity.) It was my own dumb fault that it happened, and I now rely on a dose-it, which can tell me if I’ve taken my meds or not. The VNS will work, but if it doesn’t epilepsy is just a facet of who I am, and not my defining character. RIGHT?!! 😀

I think my values have been skewed and have seen myself as a failure since I’m not a “successful” social worker. Like my mum says, one day at a time….and I’m also part of the core team for her entrepreneurial business.

I need to remember that everyone’s ideas of success are different, and I will kick ass in my own way. I am working on redefining myself and not just on my epilepsy. Like “Hey I am Sita I am an epileptic” aint an option anymore. Falling victim to something I cannot control is not an option.

 Lots of love,
Sita & JoJo xox

I Finally got The Vagus Nerve Stimulator Inserted!!!

Hey guys!!

cute_cyborg_unicat_by_cansin13art-dak33xiOn July 5 I finally got the VNS inserted. If you have no idea what the f*ck that is, check out a quick definition here.  The surgery took wayyyy longer than I anticipated and it hurt more in the first couple of days than I thought, but I am avoiding taking the pain killers I was prescribed because it hurts my stomach a lot.

My Mum helped me change bandages today, and damn it looks nasty. There are slight stitches on my collar bone, and some ugly ones on my neck. But my girlfriend lent me this great book called “The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck” by Mark Manson. I am reading the section about happiness and I love this quote: “…”Happiness requires struggle. It grows from problems. Joy just doesn’t sprout out of the ground like daisies and rainbows. Real, serious lifelong fulfillment and meaning have to be earned….”

So the Vagus Nerve Stimulator is often described as a Pace Maker for the brain, but I still haven’t had it turn on. I joke with my girlfriend and family that I am becoming a cyborg. hehehe. I still feel kinda nauseous but I have changed out of my PJ’s and am wearing casual clothes so that’s a step in the right direction. I am also listening to Boyce Avenue (check them out on Spotify!) so they are nice and chill cover songs. Life has been a bit chaotic in my family life, but I am trying to just relax and take it as easy as possible. My brother is coming home today and my girlfriend is coming over tomorrow and I have some friends who are going to visit. So other than some nausea, I am a happy girl. From now on, this blog will be written by a cute cyborg! Woot!

Love,
Sita & JoJo

I Am Approved for the Vagus Nerve Stimulator!

Hey friends!

vagus-nerve-stimulation-publicTwo weeks ago I had an appointment at one of the nearby hospitals to see if I would be approved for the Vagus Nerve Stimulator!! Guess what?! I am!!  I will be having the surgery in about three months, which I am very hopeful for. Hopefully over time it means that I can reduce my medications which make me so tired. I am sure you know what I mean. Some days I feel like a walking Zombie, so it would be great to feel like a “normal” person again. (Whatever the f*** “normal” is).

I was anticipating that the Vagus Nerve Stimulator would be inserted before the end of this year, but it’s okay that I have to wait. I mean, ideally it would have been inserted by the end of this year and it would start to work. One of the interesting things about the VNS is that it can take some time to see if it is effective at controlling seizures. Unfortunately, after the surgery, only part of it can be taken out. I makes me laugh when I look at the diagtam of someone with a VNS; it makes me feel like a bit of a robot. I guess it means when I take an airplane I will have to carry a letter explaining why I set off the machines.
In the past couple of weeks my seizures have been more active, which is hard to manage. Especially this past week my seizures have been out of control and last Tuesday it felt like someone had stuck needles into my eyeballs on top of the seizures. It has been an intense ride! It is also disappointing because I had to miss an event that my friend bought me a ticket for.

So, that’s where I am at.

Love you lots!
Sita and JoJo xox

I am Not a Complex Case, My Seizures Are

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Hey guys,

Sorry I have been MIA. I am prepping for TedxStanleyPark, which you can watch in the comfort of your own home if you are out of Vancouver. I will provide a link on the day of! I am speaking about- what else? Chronic illness!! It is so exciting, yet stress inducing. If I just let go and didn’t want myself to be perfect I think it would be a lot easier.

Anyways, I digress. A couple of weeks ago I had an appointment with my epileptologist. Now let me tell you, after these appointments I am usually in a bad mood all day. Not because my epileptologist is a bad doctor, but it usually brings up feelings of hopelessness and makes me think of all the “can’ts” that I perceive in my life.

Finally though I felt like I was getting somewhere! I have felt like I have been treading water for so long with regards to options and treatments. Since the seizures come from everywhere in my brain, surgery isn’t really the best option for me. But what am I supposed to do with ongoing seizures?  My seizures leave me with zero warning. It’s dangerous!

We discussed the possibility of a Vagus Nerve Stimulator. It has a 40% success rate, and in medicine that is a very high percentage! Near the end of the appointment I said to my doctor, “Do complex cases like me get helped with this?” He so gracefully responded by saying “YOU are not a complex case. Your seizures may be, but you are not”. That was the best thing he could have ever said. The differentiation between who I am as a person versus what my Epilepsy and seizure condition is like is so important! To have a medical professional recognize that was awesome.

I left his office with my mum in a positive mood, and I conversed with her in the car on the ride home over the sound of the radio. I even bought her Starbucks on our way home.

If you are in a tough position with your Neurologist or Epileptologist, trust me. It can get better. My Epileptologist takes his job very seriously, and recognizes that seizures impact a person’s mental health as well. I feel grateful for being able to try something new. I will never, EVER give up.

Love you lots xoxo